when do you realize that life is just too much. when do finally figure out what it is that you were meant to do in this life of oddities. is it when you want to kill yourself? is it when you wish to realize this world of your very pressence and everyone within a fifty foot radius? i think that it is those exact times you realize what you were ment to do with the life that your stuck with, i believe that it is those moments between life and eternity that make you want to live your life and do things with it. become a doctor so that you can help other miserables go on with there depressed lives. become a psycologist so you can pretend that you stopped someoneelse from makeing the same mistake that you almost made yourself before you got lost in the land of makebelieve. once you become something that helps others in anyway, you yourself become the helpless. you think you help others live their lives, while you forget about yours. i lost my point for this little ramble. anyways, on too a different subject. how is it someone can just sit around and think of such meaningless little thoughts and yet have some one else connect with them and entertwine with them so as to believe them and then make them become something so much more than what you thought they were? how is it that some one so confused in a life of darkness and words can suddenly be found by someone who thinks and talks the same way as them? isnt it by far the strangest thing that when two strangeers meet for the first time they at that moment in time, judge them wether or not they beleive that they are not a judgemental type of person? at that moment they decide wether or not they will become friends, enemies, lovers, or just another acqauintance on the path of death? i think that is enough of my thoughts, my nothingness really, just some thoughts floating around in my head that i feel i should put somewhere. well its done now, i will be back later.